I love deep talk with the husband. My husband is the person who don't know how to express himself, he is not a romantic person, he won't show out that he loves me, but deep inside, he loves me a lot.
We're talking about being parent. I apologized to him that he is not a father yet till now. Not sure what is the problem, most probably because of my hormones due to no thyroid gland. But we leave this to God, when God thinks it's good time, he will bless us.
Husband told me he wished to have a baby girl first, and hopefully her personality will like me, which is a good and sweet girl type haha. He asked whether I wish to be a mother. Who don't wish to have own baby if can right. Of course I want to.
Husband told me how glad he found me, who is a "good girl" who stick with parent most of the time. Won't made him worried like I go out with friends every night till late night or not going home etc. He wished his daughter will like me.
He expressed to me last night during dinner, that how scared he was during my sick time and surgery time, he scared he lose me, and regret for not marry me early and made me wait for so long. He said if anything happened to me, he won't start another relationship with other girl because it's tired to start loving someone all over again LOL. He said I'm a person who is easy and simple. I can eat anything together with him, not fussy, most important is full. I won't forced him to buy stuffs for me and support him whenever he need.
I used to see uncle or aunty out there, whenever they reached their age of 40+, they no longer lovely like when they first married, which I'm also worry my marriage turn out like them, which I don't want. I always asked him, when we grow old, will you still love me like you love me now. Of course his answer is yes, but I hope really yes.
I thank God for a loving husband that is simple and love me as much as I love him. He never stop me for going out with my family or friends. And I pray to God that I will continue to be a loving wife to my husband till the end.
May God bless our marriage till our last breath.
