如果要结婚。。请问问自己。。

在网上看见这个，个人觉得非常有意思。有些情侣连对方的手机都不被碰，深怕对方看见什么的，并不是要查他的手机，是连拿起他的手机都不可以，就会鬼叫冲过去抢回自己的手机，像要杀人一样然后大骂。对我而言，只是不信任对方。

像男生睡迟了，迟到，女生到了，被问到男生呢还没到？女生答说不知道，他迟到他的事，我没迟到就好。对我而言，这是自私。

很多人因为结婚而结婚，不愿意付出，只希望对方付出。个人觉得，你还是考虑清楚。

My daily beauty routine

I'm turning 30 next month, and for this age, our skin is no longer like baby's skin, smooth and fair. We need to put some effort on our skin especially face. 

I used to be a really lazy person which I can go out without any make up, any sunblock or skincare. Just out with dark circle eyes, uneven eyebrows, dark spots etc. I have to accept the truth that for my age now, I cannot be lazy like before anymore. So I slowly started on my skincare / make up routine to make sure I have that beauty looks before I go out. Not really a beauty but try my best not to look worse. 

Everyday after shower, I will put on Nature Republic Aloe Vera Smoothing Gel and that's it. Then started with my simple make up. I use Instant Age Rewind Eraser Dark Circles Treatment Concealer for my dark circle eyes. I have very serious dark circle eyes since I'm young. And this concealer is super easy to use. 

I don't really trim my eyebrows outside, I trim it at home myself and use eyebrow powder daily to have better brow. I use Maybelline Fashion Brow Duo Shaper.



I started to have cracked lips since 28yrs old. I use these two lip balms for my daily routine. I'm still not used to apply the red lipsticks like those beautiful girls yet. Just a little shine on my lips to look better.

After all the above basic makeup routine, I will spray a layer of sunscreen on my face. Just to avoid more dark spots on my face. I use L'Oreal Dermo Expertise Uv Perfect Aqua Essence City Face Mist as my sunscreen.



In my make up pouch, I have all types of make up but rarely use them on daily basis, only special occasion. I need to improve more on my skincare routine as my fine lines and wrinkles around my eyes getting worse. That's sign of aging.

For make up remover, heavy makeup I will use and for simple make up I use Garnier Skin Naturals Micellar Cleansing Water. All in 1.


I also use sheet masks on weekly basis. Mostly moisturizing mask. Sister Diary, Bioglo etc.

For hair, I used Pantene Anti-Dandruff Shampoo and Pantene 3 Minute Anti Hair Fall Conditioner, to have more smooth and healthy hair.



Will try my best to learn more to look better and how to have the natural beauty looks.

Contest Winner

I super love to join contest, or you can say kiasu la, nevermind. 😉 For me, if you joined, chances are 50/50. God super loves me, as I joined, I won few times. Lately, I just won in the Why Manis Blogging Contest. 

Super blessed to won the below prize.

Earlier too, I won myself a RM100 petrol gift card from Petronas too. Super blessed.



So, don't always said mafan lah, leceh la need do this and that. You never know when your luck come, you can't stop it. 😃

Tusan Beach

Went Tusan Beach after our trip from Niah Cave ! It was my 1st time there.

Tusan Beach is a beautiful beach area about an hour's travel time from the city, near the township Bekenu. It has smooth sandy beaches, coral reefs, a waterfall, several cliffsides and a defining feature; a large cliff with a natural arch eroded through it.

Ancient fossils are known to be found in this area, and natural rock layers on the cliffside make it a geologists' playground.

This is a fairly secluded place. Preparations are needed before visiting, so please contact proper authorities in case of emergencies and the Visitor's Information Counter for more information regarding your interest in visiting. Sunblock would be most recommended. Rising tides may also pose a problem.

In September and October of 2015, a flourish of bio-luminescent phytoplanktons along the beaches has caused the waves along the beach to glow a bright deep blue and caused many people to flock to Luak Esplanade and Tusan Beach to have a look at this amazing phenomenon.

5 Encouraging Life Verses For Marriage

Life verses are passages of scripture found in the Bible that capture our attention and feed our soul. They are so comforting, they almost seem tangible. God’s Words are powerful!

The Bible is a manual for life. It is full of hope and wisdom that we can glean from. I have experienced the power of God’s Word, how it can transform my perspectives, my character, and my heart. The Bible has changed my life for the better!

Life verses are the scriptures that are life changing. They are the ones you want to memorize because they give peace, strength and confidence. Life verses are the very Word’s of God that mean something very personal to you.

“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.” – 1 Peter 4:8

This is a great life verse for marriage because marriage is a union of two sinners. There will be times that you and your husband will fail each other, mess up, do something hurtful, and times that you will sin. It is important to remember God’s definition of love and how loving each other deeply can cover those sins and help you reconcile. Knowing this verse will remind you of the power of love!

“Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.” – Ecclesiastes 4:12 

My husband proposed with a ring that had this life verse inscribed on the inside. This verse is incredibly meaningful to both of us. Understanding that two are better than one, but that two with God is even stronger has saved our marriage multiple times! The three cords represent a husband, a wife, and God. As the three form a close relationship with each other they cannot be quickly broken. Oh how so many marriages would benefit from clinging to this verse!

“Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.” – Ephesians 4:2-3

This life verse is an obviously great reminder for marriage. If a husband and wife are humble, gentle, patient, and selfless, eager to keep the peace in their relationship, there would be a lot less fighting in the world. This verse reminds us to remain calm and do as Jesus would do. Please let these words sink deep into your heart and live it out in your marriage.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11

I have seen this life verse written out on journals, home decor and more. It is highlighted because it reveals the heart of God towards humanity. These words fill our hearts will hope and faithfulness. Sometimes we want to know all the plans God has for us, but I don’t think we would be able to handle knowing all that He has for us in the future. He is strengthening us each day. This verse helps me to trust in God and trust in His timing and His plans for my future.

“Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate.” – Mark 10:9

When I married my best friend, we entered into marriage believing divorce would never be an option. Years later came hardships and trials that threatened our relationship and wore us down to the point of pondering divorce. If it wasn’t for verses such as this, who knows where we would be today. God’s Word saved our marriage and it can save yours too! You and your husband have been joined together. Don’t let anyone or anything separate your love for each other.

Write these verses on your heart! Memorize and meditate on them daily! In your marriage relationship, talk to each other about these verses often, and encourage each other to trust in these words, while living them out!

Source : Unveiled Wife

Maxis Kongsi Home Project

While Malaysia is gearing towards the direction of a developed country, unfortunately, many Malaysians are still living in houses that are so decrepit, they can be of danger to their occupants. Aware of this humbling reality,Maxis and Epic Home initiated a special project with five of the giants of Malaysia’s online retailers and shopping sites to provide a donation of materials and workforce in helping those who are in need.

In a collaboration with four other online retailers (Gemfive, HappyFresh, Rakuten, and Zalora), Lazada Malaysia is proud to be one of the main platforms for the public to chip in their donations in building the homes for many unfortunate families comes this Chinese New Year. In a project that is known as “Maxis Kongsi Home”, this is one of the many efforts by Lazada’s Corporate Social Responsibilities (Lazada CSR) project in giving back to the people.

Lazada & Maxis – Collaborating Together towards the Common Goal

For many Malaysians, home is where the heart is. This rings true especially during the festive season where nothing is more important than spending your time with your loved ones. But what if you don’t even have a proper home to begin with? This is where “Maxis Kongsi Home” project comes into the picture. In the contemporary age where almost everything is accessible via the internet, it has become so much easier for many Malaysian philanthropists to help others who are less fortunate.

At Lazada Malaysia, we have made the process to be simple and convenient. Simply place one of the five available materials that you wish to donate into your online shopping cart. Then, once everything is confirmed, materials that were purchased will be given to Epic Home for their volunteers to build the houses from. With the available materials and parts priced at the fixed price of RM 8, helping others to have a roof over their heads has never been this easy.

Help the Less Fortunate Today – While You Are Online Shopping

Sometimes the littlest amount of effort, when it is done collectively, it could make a huge change. While RM 8 seems not much to begin with, but if every 1 in 20 of those who are online shopping participates in this project, 50 families would have a house that they can call their own by the end of this project.

Come and join our effort today. With few simple steps, we can make a change.

So I decided to join this very meaningful program by buying these two products.

Shop at these online stores:

- http://www.gemfive.com/maxiskongsihome

- http://www.happyfresh.my

- http://www.lazada.com.my/maxis-kongsi...

- http://www.rakuten.com.my/shop/maxisk...

- http://www.zalora.com.my/maxis-kongsi...

All proceeds will go to building a home for the needy, so let’s work together to build hope one home at a time.

For details, visit www.maxis.com.my/kongsihome today.

Happiness is not having what you like. Happiness is liking what you have and being content...

You were born in a first class hospital, I was delivered at home, we both survived.

You went to a private primary school and I went to a public school, we both ended in the same high school.

You woke up from the bed and I woke from the floor, we both had a peaceful night rest.

Your outfits are all expensive, mine are all simple and cheap, we both still cover our nakedness.

You ate fried rice and roasted chicken, I ate local made food but we both still ate to our satisfaction.

You ride on Lexus jeep, Range Rover, G Wagon, Hummer Jeep and I use public transport but we still got to our various destination.

You may be reading this post from your Sony xperia, BB Z10, Q10, Samsung Galaxy 6edge, IPhone6+ and I typed it with my Touch one broken screen, we still see the message.

Lifestyle is not a competition and there are different ways to get a lot of things done, different lanes all leading to the same destination. Just because your neighbour is doing things faster does not mean you are failing.

Happiness doesn't come from having everything, but making the best out of what you have, it's all about how you see yourself.

Happiness is not having what you like. Happiness is liking what you have and being content... 

Courtesy says 

You must never ask a woman her age and a man his salary..

Do you know why, Have you ever thought about it..

Well here is a beautiful insight...

It is wrong to ask a woman her age because she hardly ever lives for herself!

And it is wrong to ask a man his salary because he hardly ever spends on himself!.

KALAU TAK SUKA, PULANGKAN

Yesterday I read an article about a husband, who have bad temper and not being a good husband and father. I tagged my husband wanted him to read about it. And in the afternoon I received his lovely message telling how much he loves me etc. I asked him if he did something wrong. Haha. 

At night when we preparing our dinner, he suddenly asked me :" are you happy today I being good husband lovely with you?" Of course I said yes. :D He said he don't want to be like the man in the article I tagged him, he don't want regret later when he lose me one day. 

Article below in Malay language, enjoy reading.

KALAU TAK SUKA, PULANGKAN

Kereta dihentikan betul-betul di hadapan rumah. Pintu pagar automatiknya terbuka. Perlahan kereta dihalakan ke dalam garaj.

“Horey! Papa balik!” Kelihatan anak-anaknya berlari mengiringi keretanya.
“Tepi! Bahaya tau tak?” Jeritnya.
Anak-anak termanggu. Cahaya kegembiraan di wajah mereka pudar.
“Aimin bawa adik ke belakang.” Arahnya pada anak yang sulong.

Pulangnya petang itu disambut dingin oleh anak-anak. Isterinya turut terdiam bila mendengar anak-anak mengadu tentang papa mereka.

“Papa penat. Aimin bawa adik mandi dulu. Mama siapkan minum petang. Lepas minum papa mesti nak main bola dengan kita,” pujuk Laila.
Dia yang mendengar di ruang tamu hanya mendengus. Seketika kemudian terdengar hilai tawa anak-anaknya di bilik mandi. Dia bangun.

“Hah! Main air. Bil bulan ini papa kena bayar dekat seratus. Cepat! Tutup paip tu! Buka shower!” Sergahnya. Suara yang bergema mematikan tawa anak-anaknya.

“Asal saya balik rumah mesti bersepah. Kain baju berselerak. Apa awak makan tidur aje ke duduk rumah?” sambungnya kembali bila isterinya terpacul di belakang pintu.

“Anak-anak pa. Diorang yang main tu. Takpe nanti mama kemas. Papa minum ye. Mama dah siapkan kat taman.” Balas isterinya lembut.
“Fail saya kat depan tu mana?”
“Mama letak dalam bilik. Takut budak-budak alihkan.”
“Boleh tak awak jangan usik barang-barang saya? Susah tau tak? Fail tu patutnya saya bawa meeting tengahari tadi.” Rungutnya sekalipun di hati kecil mengakui kebenaran kata-kata isterinya itu.
Suasana sepi kembali. Dia menarik nafas berat. Terasa begitu jauh berbeza. Dia tercari-cari riuh suara anak-anak dan wajah isterinya. “Laila” Keluhnya Akhirnya dia terlena di sofa.

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“Saya nak ke out station minggu depan.”
“Lama?” Soal Laila.
“Dalam seminggu.”
“Cuti sekolah pun lama. Mama ikut boleh?”
“Budak-budak? “
“Ikut jugalah.”
“Dah! Takde! Takde! Susah nanti. Macam-macam diorang buat kat sana . Tengok masa kat Legacy dulu tu..”
“Masa tu Amirul kecik lagi.” Balas Laila.

Wajahnya sayu. Dia masih berusaha memujuk biarpun dia tahu suaminya tak mungkin berganjak dari keputusan yang dibuat. Tak mungkin peristiwa Amirul terpecahkan pinggan di hotel dulu berulang. Anak itu masih kecil benar sewaktu ia berlaku. Lagipun apa sangatlah harganya pinggan itu malahan pihak hotel pun tak minta ganti rugi.

” Bolehlah Pa ! Lama sangat kita tak ke mana-mana.”
“Nak jalan sangat Sabtu ni saya hantar awak balik kampung,” Muktamad!

Demikianlah seperti kata-katanya. Anak-anak dan isterinya dihantar ke kampung. Laila tak merungut apa-apa meskipun dia tahu isterinya berkecil hati. Anak-anak terlompat riang sebaik kereta berhenti di pengkarangan rumah nenek mereka. Tak sampai setengah jam dia telah bergegas semula untuk pulang. Bapa mertuanya membekalkan sebuah kitab lama.

“Cuba-cubalah baca. Kitab tu pun abah ambil dari masjid. Dari mereka bakar abah ambik bagi kamu!”
“Manalah saya ada masa..”
“Takpe..pegang dulu. Kalau tak suka pulangkan balik!” Dia tersentak dari khayalannya.
“Kalau tak suka pulangkan balik!” Kata-kata itu bergema di fikirannya. Dia rasa tersindir.
Tahukah bapa mertuanya masalah yang melanda rumahtangganya itu? Bukan..bukan tak suka malah dia tetap sayang sekalipun Laila bukan pilihannya. Dunia akhirat Laila adalah isterinya. Cuma..
“Mizi, makan!” Panggil ibunya yang datang menemaninya sejak seminggu lalu. “Jangan ikutkan hati. Yang sudah tu sudahlah.”

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“Papa! Makan!” Jerit Aiman ,anak keduanya sambil tersengih-sengih mendapatkan dirinya.
“Tak boleh panggil papa elok-elok. Ingat papa ni pekak ke?”
Aiman menggaru kepalanya yang tak gatal. Pelik! Kenapa papanya tiba-tiba saja marah. Dia berpatah semula ke dapur.
“Awak masak apa?”
“Mama masak sup tulang dengan sambal udang!” jawab Amirul memotong sebelum sempat mamanya membuka mulut.
“Takde benda lain ke awak boleh masak? Dah saya tak nak makan. Hilang selera!”
“Papa nak ke mana?” Soal isterinya perlahan.
“Keluar!”
“Mama dah masak Pa!”
“Awak saja makan!”
“Takpe Aiman boleh habiskan. Cepatlah ma!”
Laila tahu Aiman hanya memujuk. Anak keduanya itu sudah pandai mengambil hatinya. Aimin tersandar di kerusi makan. Sekadar memerhati langkah papanya keluar dari ruang makan.
“Kenapa sekarang ni papa selalu marah-marah ma?” Soal Aimin sambil menarik pinggannya yang telah berisi nasi.
“Papa banyak kerja agaknya. Dah! Makan.”
“Abang tak suka tengok papa marah-marah. .”
“Adik pun sama. Bila papa marah muka dia macam gorilla kan ?”
Kata-kata Aiman disambut tawa oleh abang-abangnya yang lain. Laila menjeling. Di hati kecilnya turut terguris.Besar sangatkah dosanya hingga menjamah nasi pun tidak. Kalau ada pun salahnya, apa?

Syamizi menjengah ke ruang dapur. Kosong.
“Laila..” serunya
“Sudahlah tu Mizi! Jangan diingat-ingat. Kerja Tuhan ni tak dapat kita tolak-tolak. Bawak-bawaklah beristighfar. Kalau terus macam ni sakit kau nanti.” Kata ibunya yang muncul tiba-tiba.
“Sunyi pulak rumah ni mak,”
“Lama-lama kau biasalah.”
Airmatanya menitis laju. “Kalau tak suka pulangkan!” Dia rasa terhukum. Hampir segenap saat kata-kata itu bergema di sekitarnya. Dia rasa terluka. Kehilangan yang amat sangat.

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“Papa beli apa untuk Aiman?” Soal Aiman sebaik dia pulang dari outstationnya.
“Beli apa pulak? Barang permainan kan bersepah dalam bilik belakang tu.”
“Tak ada lah?”
“Ingat papa ni cop duit?”

Aiman termangu. Dia berlalu mencari mamanya di dapur. Seketika kemudian rumah kembali riuh dengan telatah anak-anak lelakinya yang bertiga itu mengiringi mama mereka yang sedang menatang dulang berisi hidangan minum petang.
Wajah Laila direnungnya. Ada kelainan pada raut itu. Riaknya tenang tapi ada sesuatu yang sukar ditafsirkannya.
“Awak tak sihat ke?”
Laila tersenyum. Tangannya pantas menuang air ke cawan.
“Papa, tak lama lagi abang dapat adik lagi.” Aimin mencelah di antara perbualan kedua ibu bapanya.
Shamizi tersenyum. Jemari isterinya digenggam erat. Tiba-tiba cawan berisi kopi yang masih panas terjatuh dan pecah di lantai. Aiman tercegat.

“Tengok! Ada saja yang kamu buat. Cuba duduk baik-baik. Kalau air tu tak tumpah tak sah!” Tempiknya membuatkan anak itu tertunduk ketakutan. Baju mamanya dipegang kejap.

Lengan Aiman dipegangnya kuat hingga anak kecil itu mula menangis. Pantas saja akhbar di tangannya hinggap ke kepala anaknya itu. Laila cuba menghalang tapi dia pantas dulu menolak isterinya ke tepi. Aiman di pukul lagi. Amirul menangis. Aimin mendapatkan mamanya.

“Perangai macam beruk! Tak pernah buat orang senang!”
Laila bangun dari jatuhnya dan menarik lembut Aiman ke dalam pelukkannya. Airmata mereka bersatu. Pilu sungguh hatinya melihat kekasaran suaminya terhadap anak-anak.

“Cukuplah pa. Papa dah hukum pun dia tapi janganlah sebut yang bukan-bukan. ” Ujar Laila perlahan
“Macamana awak didik budak-budak sampai macam ni teruk perangainya? Tengok anak orang lain ada macam ni? Anak kak Long tu tak pulak macam ni. Panjat sana , kecah barang. Gila apa?” Omelnya kembali.

Shamizi meraut wajah. Bukan kepalang salahnya pada Aiman. Padanya anak itu tak pernah dapat memuaskan hatinya. Ada saja salah Aiman di matanya. Ada saja yang kurang di hatinya terhadap anak-anak dan isteri. Tak cukup dengan perbuatan malah dia begitu mudah melemparkan kata-kata yang bukan-bukan terhadap mereka.

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“Tak boleh ke kamu semua senyap? Dalam sehari ni boleh tak diam? Rimas betul duduk dalam rumah ni.”
Laila menyuruh anak-anaknya bermain di halaman belakang rumah. Memberi sedikit ruang buat suaminya menonton dengan tenang.

Malangnya tak lama kemudian kedengaran bunyi tingkap kaca pecah.
“Celaka betul!” Sumpahnya sambil menghempaskan akhbar ke meja.
“Abang!”
“Baik awak tengok anak-anak awak tu sebelum saya hambat dengan rotan! Perangai satu-satu macam tak siuman!” Getusnya kasar.

Akhirnya tingkap yang pecah kembali diganti. Cerita sumpah seranahnya petang itu hilang begitu saja. Laila berubah. Sikapnya yang pendiam menjadi semakin pendiam. Anak-anak juga sedikit menjauh. Tak ada lagi cerita Amirul di tadika. Tak ada lagi kisah Aimin yang cemerlang di dalam sukan sekolahnya. Aiman juga tak lagi mahu memanggilnya makan.

Shamizi terasa puas hati. Barangkali itu saja caranya untuk memberi sedikit pengajaran pada anak-anak.

“Pak Ngah, Eddie nak balik!” Shamizi terpana. Dia mengangguk.
“Kak Long balik dulu Mizi. Sudahlah! Kamu muda lagi. Cari pengganti.”
Alangkah mudahnya. Kalaulah dia boleh bertemu lagi yang serupa seperti Laila. Laila tak ada yang kurang Cuma dia yang tak pernah puas hati. Laila tak pernah merungut. Laila tak pernah membantah. Sepanjang usia perkahwinan mereka Laila tak pernah meminta lebih dari apa yang dia beri. Laila cuma dapat gred B walaupun dia teramat layak untuk mendapat gred yang lebih baik dari A.
“Laila”

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“Papa nak ke mana hensem-hensem gini?” Dia tersenyum sambil menjeling ke cermin meninjau bayang isterinya yang kian sarat. “Wangi-wangi lagi. Dating ye?”
“Saya ada makan malam di rumah bos besar. Dia buat makan-makan untuk staff.” Ujarnya masih leka membetulkan kolar kemeja batiknya.
“Ikut boleh?”
“Dia tak ajak family. Staff only!” Terangnya sedangkan difikirannya terfikir lain. Kali ni dia akan pergi ke jamuan tu dengan Helmi. Helmi akan turut menumpangkan Maria dan Harlina. Staff yang masih muda dan bujang.
“Dalam setahun papa selalu ke jamuan office tapi tak pernah pun bawak kami.”
“Leceh kalau ada budak-budak. Bukan tau duduk diam Lari sana sini, panjat itu ini. “
“Papa pesanlah..”
“Nantilah besar sikit.” Dalihnya.
“Kalau tunggu besar takut takde peluang. Nanti diorang tu dah tak nak ikut pergi mana pun.”
“Lagi senang. Saya kalau lasak-lasak ni buat hati panas je,”
Laila terdiam. “Namanya budak-budak. Anak-anak papa tu lelaki.”
“Saya pergi kejap je. Lepas tu terus balik.”
“Mama tanya sikit boleh?” Dia mengangguk
“Bos tak pelawa atau papa malu nak bawa mama dan anak-anak?”

Mereka dia tinggalkan di rumah. Di jamuan tu ramai staff yang membawa keluarga mereka bersama. Pada Shamizi dia mahukan keselesaan sedangkan hakikatnya anak-anak staff yang lain lebih lasak dan nakal. Semeja hidangan untuk anak-anak staff berderai bila ada yang bermain tarik-tarik alas kainnya.

“Never mind. Budak-budak memang macam tu. Kalau tak lasak tak cerdik,” ujar Mr. Kwai, tuan rumah.
Shamizi sedikit mengakui kebenaran kata-kata itu. Anak-anaknya pun nakal tapi amat membanggakan dalam pelajaran. Namun dia rasa serba tak kena bila bersama mereka. Bimbang ada yang menyata yang bukan-bukan tentang anak-anaknya yang lasak apatah lagi tentang isterinya Laila. Bimbang dimalukan dengan perangai anak-anaknya. Bimbang jika dikatakan Laila tidak sepadan dengan dirinya. Dia lulusan luar negara sedang Laila cuma perempuan kampung. Tak pandai bergaya seperti staff wanita yang lain. Betullah jangkaan Laila, dia malu untuk memperkenalkan isteri dan anak-anaknya pada rakan-rakan.

“Kalau tak suka pulangkan!” Kata-kata itu semakin keras di fikirannya.
Pagi itu anak-anak sekali lagi dimaki sebelum ke sekolah. Semata-mata bila Aimin dan Aiman bergelut berebutkan tempat duduk di meja makan menyebabkan air cuci tangan tumpah ke meja. Berangnya tiba-tiba menguasai diri. Kepala kedua-duanya di lagakan sedangkan perebutan itu tidak pula disusuli dengan perkelahian.

“Kamu semua ni..kalau macam ni daripada ada elok tak ada. Menyusahkan! ” Laila merenungnya dalam..
Matanya berkaca dan anak-anak ke sekolah tanpa menyalaminya seperti selalu. Laila juga tidak berkata apa-apa sebelum menghidupkan enjin untuk menghantar anak-anak ke sekolah. Shamizi dapat melihat Laila mengesat airmatanya. Dia terus menghadapi sarapannya. Sejenak dia terpandang hidangan untuk anak-anak yang tak bersentuh. Susu masih penuh di cawan. Roti telur yang menjadi kesukaan anak-anak juga tidak dijamah. Bekal di dalam bekas tidak diambil.Pelik! Selama ini Laila tak pernah lupa..

“Kalau tak suka pulangkan,”
Kali ini dia benar-benar menangis. Laila dan anak-anak terus tak pulang selepas pagi itu. Hari-harinya tak lagi diganggu dengan gelagat anak-anak. Rumah terus sunyi dan sepi. Tetap dia tak dapat tidur dengan lena. Di halaman belakang hanya ada kenangan. Kelibat anak-anaknya bergumpal dan berlari mengejar bola tak lagi kelihatan. Riuh anak-anak bila mandi di bilik air juga tidak lagi kedengaran. Dia mula dihambat rindu. Hanya ada kesunyian di mana-mana. Hanya tinggal bola yang terselit di rumpun bunga.

Selaut rindu mula menghambat pantai hatinya. Laila.
Benarlah, kita hanya tahu harganya bila kita kehilangannya.
Laila terus tak pulang sekalipun dia berjanji untuk berubah.

Laila pergi membawa anak-anaknya pagi itu bila kereta mereka dirempuh sebuah kereta lain yang dipandu laju. Laila pergi tanpa meninggalkan satu pun untuknya. Laila pergi membawa Aimin, Aiman, Amirul dan zuriat yang bakal dilahirkan dua bulan lagi..
Dia menangis semahu-mahunya bila menatap wajah lesi anak-anak dan isterinya. Dia meraung memeluk tubuh Laila yang berlumuran darah. Hakikatnya Laila adalah kitab lama itu, lapuk bagaimana pun dipandangan harganya tak terbanding, dan kerana keengganannya Laila dipulangkan…….